Talking about stuff by DJ Awesome

I don't like, it's so like, it's so like, who cares? I don't think like, I wasn't saying it as like, I don't think we were saying it at all as in like, oh my god, finally, like this guy, it's just like, finally this guy gives, getting what he's just like, okay, hold on, let me do it for you, right? This guy, you did use that language. It was like, finally, this guy, the worst thing possible, I've never been token logged, but like, finally, I don't think it was less like, finally, you've been token logged, you were a horrible person that deserves to die or whatever. I think it was more like, for us, it was kinda like, oh, well, this person that I might as well dislike was caught actually being a bad person, wow. Maybe we were right after all, which clearly is in the case, obviously, as we know right now. It's a little context. Yeah, but this in the, yeah, in the context of the situation, it seems like you or like, you were a part of this whole scandal, so it's like, oh my gosh, maybe you really like are a bad guy. And then, but obviously, then, you know, we didn't know that, even like, I remember Michi sent like, I don't know, I remember, Michi sent like, to the data who was, Emma was like, oh my god, like this is a, you know, like, oh wow. I don't think he actually gave like a straight answer, actually. It's weird, but I think the validity of the leaks, whether or not the leaks were real or not, kinda undermined the whole point of all this, wasn't shitty for us to really be celebrating, like on someone's downfall, yeah. I would say that, but it's just kinda like, I don't know, it's a little, I feel like it's a matter of perspective. I don't think anyone deserves perspective. Yeah, no, no, keep going. Yeah, it's a matter of perspective. I feel like, I feel like you, like I would say for you personally, if like, you know, if you saw someone that you saw, like, you know, that you already kind of feel very like, off-put-by is a very like, actually negatively, like, most of your, like, as very negatively, and you've heard a lot of negative things about them, like even though you never feel like it's like, oh wow, okay. Like, okay. Maybe this guy is getting, what's for the search? It very is important. We didn't have the context, and that's kinda like the main thing. We weren't saying it, like, I don't, I don't think any of us were saying it as like a big like, you know, we really just like, like, I didn't the day, I don't really wish, like, I try not to wish the worst things imaginable, but it was more like, oh wow, this guy got caught doing something really bad, and like, oh my God, because me part, again, like, this is gonna sound like a, oh, but he don't have internet type of, like, you know, like, type of excuse, but I don't, I'm more recently, I find myself not really intuned with EXE stuff nowadays, like, especially with the nitty gritty of who's who? Like, I didn't really know who Nexus was until like that whole like, infinity conversation or whatever, and I didn't was like, oh my God, like, with that being my first impression of him, it was like, dude, this guy's low-key annoying. Jesus Christ. I'm just gonna like, I'm just gonna like, pretend he doesn't exist, and then like on top of that with like, other things, like, I don't know he existed, and then like, you know, other stories of her from other people, it just kinda meant like, oh, well, okay, okay, and I didn't really think much about it, honestly, to be completely honest, but yeah, yeah, if any other, that's kinda, that's kinda where I stand, personally. So, I'm saying that, you're more than infuse yes, the reactions are a result of you being conditioned to dislike me, just despite never ever actually talking to me is what I'm here. Mm, that's me, that's like, yeah, having was a good way to perception thing. Yeah, the first, like, my perception of you as a person was already negative, so I just kinda felt like, oh, that seems appropriate, screw that guy. So you would agree that I did absolutely nothing to you. Yeah, I was there. Your view of me was completely based on your own hallucination, and as a result of your own hallucination, you thought it would be appropriate to joke about me being hacked and being used as a scapegoat for Alika. I think, is that true? I think we're kind of missing the whole point. Even, even, I think we're getting lost in the nature of the malice, I think we're getting lost in the motivation, like, oh, well, if DJ awesome, you know, he's like the main problem at hand is that I allowed my team and myself to join and I'm bashing you. However, you know, either that's the main problem. I don't think it really matters whether or not, like, we again, we iterate, I, at least we didn't know you were talking about, and I just don't think it's fair to kind of make it out to be like, we were purposely like, shaming you like, ah-ha-ha, you got soaking wet. You stuck, kill yourself, like, no, I thought that's not really, I think that's not really what, even like, I, I'm not sure if I'm necessarily allowed to share these screenshots because I don't want to bring other people into this because, again, I really just like, it's just, it's already, I feel like it's already gone too far as it already has. I'm very, really complicated as it is. Exactly, so, um, but after like, you know, like, you know, we, I, I, after we, um, I don't know, like, I'm trying to think because like, okay, we've, we've posted the video. Retake to posted the video and then we all were doing the thing, Magigi, and then after that, like after a while, sorry, after a while, this person, I'm not gonna name them my name. It was like fake leak by the way. I was like, when he was like, what? And it's like, it's like, oh, like this blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And it's like, oh, shit, that's kind of stupid. Like, I, then I felt kind of, started to feel kind of bad because like, I was like, oh, it isn't even real. And then like, that's kind of like, okay, I feel kind of bad now. I, no one, like, no one cons, like, when I, in my response, when I said people contacted us, like, no one specifically contacted me saying you were token log. Because I don't really have that many connections with other people outside of like, who's in our sumo studios. So I kind of was just like, oh, and again, because I just don't really, I'm not really that big here, at least not anymore. So it's like, I kind of, I just was like, after we found out what's fake, I was like, who cares? Like, I'm sorry, that's really unfortunate. Even at the base level, like some of the, like, I hate, like, I need to, we look at that video. But some of the screenshots were very, it was on, fuck, some of the screenshots. I was more concerned about the, like, the, not the, like, who was infected by it? Yes, okay. I was more concerned, like, even like, I was like, you know, nexus is so fri, bro. And it's like, yeah, because like, yeah, like, this should, like, if this is like a real, like, really, like maliciously done thing, then, oh my gosh, maybe, you know, see ya, goodbye, peace sign. But outside of that, like, when we found out it was fake, I was like, oh dang, that's not like shit, sorry. Didn't mean that time, or anything. It was like shit, sorry. Anyway, didn't really think that much about it since then. Because I don't know. I just, I don't know. That's kind of a big. Firstly in my opinion, I was like, like, clearly in the air, even if there was a miscommunication or misunderstanding, it's just a, that's fair, honestly. Because I don't know. It's just like, I don't know. I think this is kind of, it's definitely on me for my lack of like, you know, like, oh, my lack of like, initiative to like, kind of like, find out things for myself. But I just, again, I've been, like, this has happened so many times before, man. Like I just, it's like, who, I did a day, you kind of get to a point where you just kind of do even care about the inequity of the details. And you, you know, you just kind of like, well, whatever happened, happened, man. Since we've decided to, you know, we've neglected the reason as to why you guys felt the way you did towards me. Because I've tried to, I've tried to gain that understanding even clearly of something. Oh, yeah. I do want to, I do want to focus on your, your point of, you were, you're laughing at me, not because you thought that I was exploited, because you thought I was working in tandem with the sleeker and I was actually, you know, I was, I was leaking on time was leaking. That's why you guys were insulting me. And I mean, that narrative would, would work if you want, you know, so blatantly making fun of the fact that Kyle had put me on blast in the video. You go, Nexus is so fried. You say that's okay. Cool. Nexus is so fried. And then in your next message, you send this, this boy wonder gift from the batons, you go, thank you Nexus VGM for server access. This wouldn't have been possible without you. You say that in quotation and then you post the boy wonder gift. So in what way can I glean that this is about me working in tandem with the leaker? This is you taking a quote that the leaker has done to put me on blast and that's you finding fun out of it and making a meme out of it. How in what well to you then decided that it would be, it would be natural to say that you were all watching me in this screenshot, not because I was logged, not because this leaker got a hold on me. It was actually because you thought I was working in tandem with the leaker. Even though in the video, I am put on blast in a quote and then you send that quote in the channel and then post a gift and make fun of it. I just don't, I don't see how that makes sense. I feel like if you want to mention your reasons for disliking me, there's no need to beat around the bush. I don't really understand. I mean, and I wish I did. If you can explain why you sent that gift and why you quoted, that specific quote of that leaker, putting me on blast, I could send it down. But I don't really see it. OK. Before I say what I say, I feel hyper-analysing, then like I feel like we're kind of like going deeper. Get the fuck out of my face. What the hell? I'm sorry. I got like, oh, rate X. OK. But like me personally, it feels kind of like, OK. I posted that gift and it's like, oh, the boy wonder gift. Because like it's like the narrative I had in my head was that like you two were working together and then you somehow got backstabbed by this Kyle guy who put you on blast. Because again, like again, as someone who has been involved, heavily involved in the leaking scene before with my own songs and own projects getting leaked, like it seems like something, like it really seems like something like these people would do. Leakers are slimy as fuck. And it just kind of seemed like, OK, well, it's like thank you next is BGM for giving me access. It's like a final like, you know, like, gotcha. You thought you would do like, you know, you thought I would get away from this like scoffery. That was like, hey, that was that was the narrative that I personally got from the situation. And that's just really it, honestly. Like it just seemed like a big like, because again, the FNF EXC scene is full of its own set of full big conspiracies with these interconnected webs of like, who said that? Who did that? He was actually behind this and this down and third. And it's just like, it just kind of, I just kind of chucked it up to that and pretty much. It just kind of seemed like another case of like, someone getting caught with their hand in the cookie jar. And that's kind of, that was my personal takeaway for me. But again, that does not at all negate the fact of what I said was kind of inappropriate at the time. Like I have a very like on. I for me personally, I unfortunately like to make jokes at like the wrong time, especially during such, like kind of personally kind of personally helped me kind of like, you know, like, I think everyone kind of makes like mental jokes like, oh wow. Well, that like, you know, like making memes out of situation. Even like, you know, not everyone in existence. But a lot of people try to make like even even in this.