EVERYONE IS BURNT OUT & NOBODY SAYS IT

step to another company. Back then the funny thing was at the company where I worked they said that I wasn't good enough and like I didn't perform so I was like okay then let's look for another company and the moment that I found something else they were like yeah but you're good and we don't want to lose you and all that stuff so you already know that you're in a toxic effigment so that is like ingredient one. I will tie this all together later at the end of the story so from there I was already a few years in blockchain when I started in 2017 but some coins some portfolio going up in and at that time I was also doing sneaker reselling this is also how I come at my what tree name hyperstrike because hyperstrike shoes or friends of family pairs very exclusive ones that are yeah that there are maybe one or maybe max five pairs of it so in 2021 when I came on Solana like everyone was calling me hyper I was chasing all the NFTs tried to get on the white list and all that stuff before I knew I was doing do do moderation jobs and at a certain moment I was asked by someone from the US to be a community manager for his project and there I met a Swiss guy and well I met him also in real life and I decided to work with him for two and a half three years and I appreciate also all the other stuff don't get me wrong I learned also a lot yet also there it was a firement where well I lost myself when I was out of that well working relationship I didn't know even who the fuck I was anymore so from there I decided to go back in web too also because I didn't had a choice so it made sure that I have my current job at the moment as active recruiter again and from there I was like I'm going to take two three steps back and first is I'm going to see what is happening in this space like what are people talking about is the still room for a person like me so slowly but steady I found my pace again I found myself again and fast forward we are now two and a half years further and I'm becoming stronger stronger again so call depression call a burnout like let's say this way I have stand next to the train tracks and I was like I'm gonna take my life so I think it was pretty serious and I cannot talk openly about it and I will do it till the day I die because I think we should speak up way more about this stuff especially in this environment or on blockchain and especially if you're working with tokens and meme coins and all that stuff there is such a peer pressure sometimes that you always need to perform that like when you go to bed that that one thing pops off and that you think that won't be a chance and I think the biggest lesson there is to prioritize your health prioritize like your goals and make sure that you have the right people around you and that's why I also tie it back to the toxic environment it says a lot about you at the point that you choose it then you need to really look if you have your priorities straight sometimes also people come in on your road and they need to learn you something this learned me to choose myself more so yeah long story short yes I have had this feeling it's it is a serious thing it's something that is yeah a new age disease because like I think we are coming in a higher consciousness at the moment and that we really see what is really happening it's the same with AI AI is everywhere and some people are making a scarlet of it and some people say like oh this will bring abundance the answer will be somewhere in the middle I think like yet also AI exposes like how the structure always has went for the last couple of decades and I think that is a hard pill to swallow sometimes because then you know that like a lot of our history is well decided by the pictures that like a lot of the stuff that is being told on a daily basis well you can say lie is maybe a big word but like has been framed in a certain way so it benefited the certain group and I think it's time that we use those technologies that we have in front of us to fight back to keep everything in on custody to well make sure that we also fight for our own privacy again so yeah long story short yes and yeah this is how I think about the topic thanks for sharing a lot hyper is very sensitive and insightful and I have something similar in my life and probably a lot of our listeners too and yeah let's make a privacy great again you mentioned that when you started in web-ray you've kind of lost yourself I assume it was more I mean it wasn't the negative way that you kind of didn't have time to spend on any other stuff because at some point I was thinking by getting lost human that you were who we into this you know and like passionate about it yeah well yeah well the thing is when I came actively in wet tree with contributing through as a moderator and all that stuff it I had like a burnout and like wet tree was a way to find myself in a kind of way again because I found out like hey shit I have also this skill sets and oh shit I can also do this so I wasn't a big learning curve and all that stuff so the funny is how I came actively in web-3 was through a burnout and where I found myself in a kind of way but then at a certain point I didn't have my priority straight I was focusing too much on outcomes and especially on the monetary stuff that I was working with someone who really knew who how we needed to push those buttons and and I can say like he pushed the buttons I also made sure that I was blind for it at that point so I can blame everyone else but I'm the only person that I can blame is myself that is like you always need to and this is something that that changed and this is also a good way to make sure that well everyone will experience ups and downs but that you don't need to step next to a train track like me because that is something that I hope that no one needs to experience in their life but to have a checkpoint once every two weeks four weeks where you just evaluate okay how did the last weeks went like what made me happy what is draining my energy where it's people are draining my energy like with people are giving me my energy how can I make sure that I get the better version of myself and the next coming four weeks to have those shorter circles and like living life is basically top sport it is like you can compare it with sports and I think with how we are being raised in schools in the last well 20 30 years we were prepared for a society where you were like sitting in an office waiting till it's five o'clock and clock out but even that kind of life is not there anymore with all the technology changes that are happening we are now looking for way more people who are authentic and themselves but at schools you learn to be like a fucking robot so now people need to all learn stuff of stuff that they already were capable of it's the same I'm doing a course at the moment around the neural linguistic programming I did already a practitioner 10 years ago with this course it's also going a lot about subconscious and also about yeah how do I say it correctly about your place in the in the structures of life like your family in your workspace and just the society as a whole and there you see how far we distance ourselves from what we really are like incredible human beings that have the ability to adapt to everything but nowadays we think too much even with all the words like that I'm saying right now like with some I need to think and then like you think too much how you present something and that can be good it can be bad but thousands of years ago we just were something we were just being we we we were just in the moment because we needed to survive and I think that we have the luxury now to live a life very consciously and make decisions and that we forgot along the way to also take care of or in a child and also take care about what really is driving us and that shouldn't be the monetary stuff that's is like a tool to get somewhere it isn't time because time is also too to get somewhere but like what is it then and for me it's like energy passing from one to another to make sure that's like well we can build a world where people don't feel alone and where everything is there at a moment that people need it and we need to work for it together in the end it's an individual process and that is like the fucked up thing because you need to work on yourself to connect it again with someone else so and and that stuff is making it conflicting all the time because then you get situations that people are very self-centered and self-focused well I have respect for that but you also need to have your eyes open and see how you can help someone else again so yeah sorry for my rent guys but yeah about this topic I can speak for four hours so no it's all good man I mean I think I can assume that you really good at that topic and especially like I feel that you are on work life balance side and I wanted to ask so because I personally more of a grinder person like you know when you spend most of the time one thing you want to achieve your goal and everything and then you move on to another one and the next and do you think like first of all have you that vision that you need to take care of your health that you need to manage your work and also like take care of the family for the whole your like lifetime or it changes and maybe you know at some point you was thinking in one way and then another one very good question so I'm being raised by a mother and a father that are still together are happily married my father works in the factory still hopefully the his last three years and that he finally can live his life my mother was always stay at home but she also wasn't any for children that came at all home so I had a lot of little brothers and sisters that I could lend and that I could play with so that was also nice so I had a good I had a good childhood and that was also in the age of where it was very normal that you worked 25 years 30 years for the same company or even worked for one company your whole life so with that image to go into this world where then like the mobile phone came and like the internet came and then like social media came it shifted everything so I first did like a sports education and after it I did human research management and I was still with the goal I want to be at one employer and I first going to start as an HR officer then like as an advisor and at the end I want to be like an HR manager that was like my goal and I wanted to find out one girl that I'm going to marry and I have like two three children with and just have a stable life make sure that you have like enough income that you can provide from when I was eight I was always busy with running so that was something that I could put myself in totally so I have also ran on a semi-pro level there in the Netherlands so that was the image that I had but at a certain point I had two relationships with two girls of three years and the funny thing is with women don't get me wrong if you're a woman and if you listening at the moment because I'm not looking at my phone but sorry like women are sometimes very complicated and I had two that was like don't cheat don't cheat don't cheat and we'll cheat it well they were and in those relations I was too busy with pleasing instead of like what do I need and from there things shifted because at a certain moment I was like okay I'm just going to do stuff and find the route for around find out and the funny thing was the moment that I let go that's what was the moment that I found my wife so let letting go of stuff and just let things happen or that you have that certain image in your head that something needs to go that way I learned now that