Beneath The Dance Hall Lights

And I was like, yes. So I get all down to, I'm like second row, but it's practically front row, because it turns out it's easy to get a ticket when it's just one. Everybody else buys them in groups and doubles or wads and I was alone. Fine. So they start, which is lovely. And there was this lovely family in front of me and on the side of me, they were like 8, 9, 10, 11 of them together. And it was just these kids were great. And it wasn't really a kid's show, I guess, but whatever. It was great. And these guys come out and they start the show. And listen, you could have fucking bet that, you could have bet the house on it. The guy comes out and he's like, you know, like life is hard. And he just starts talking about life and putting down the electronics and connecting and singing. And he's like, and this is going to like fix you and heal you. And I was like, fuck, that's exactly why I'm here. And of course I start crying. I've got tears in my eyes. I'm like, don't make eye contact with anybody because this is stupid that you're crying. But also at the same time, I had high expectations. Just let me fucking sing and let everything be OK and we'll be good. And that ultimately is exactly what happened. I literally just sang, well, this is funny. I've got to take a detour. That's wild. Glad we're memorializing this. I'm going in the complete opposite direction. How was my GPS didn't tell me that? We're going to figure it out. OK. So that's weird. Is there a detour side here? Shouldn't there be orange signs? Oh, here they are. Perfect. Stay with me while I get lost. Great. Thank you. OK. So it's just great. And they encourage you to just kind of like, there's nobody has phones. You can't put your phone on. And they want you to sing. And they're encouraging you to sing and move and move your hands and really kind of just get into it. And I did. I went all in. I was singing. And then there was a part where we were singing a song. And they made us split the aisles. And turns out like I had to face the other aisle. And then we had to do some like, it was just fucking. It was great. Fucking healed me. I'm not kidding. It healed me so much that when I got out of there, now the only issue I had is I don't like walking alone, especially in New Bedford at night. And I parked in the parking garage. And so I pretended to be on my phone talking to people as I went to my vehicle, got up there, got into the car, closed the doors, safe and secure inside. And I open up both my phones and take them off of Do Not Disturb to about five doubt. I kid you not. I can't even tell you how many messages. And apparently you all forgot that I was going to sing my heart and soul out tonight. And everybody was like, are you watching the valid truth journey? The answer is no. I don't even watch it on a day where I'm not in a theater. But I was in a theater this evening. So no, I wasn't watching. Did I miss anything? Yes, apparently I missed that Aiden is insinuating that my husband is a pedophile. And that is why my stepson doesn't see him. Please thank the lyrics and the genius of Lindsay Buckingham, Christine McVeigh and Stevie Nicks for centering my soul so that I don't react to that. We can't react to a crazy man saying crazy things. Now, some of you may know true crime fan girl. She has been a mod of my channel for a very long time, except for that one time where I panicked, and I took her off, but I put her right back on. She texted me. She's not even on the bunny hotline. She's on the regular hotline, regular phone. And she's like raging mad about Aiden accusing or making the assumption of this. And the way that I guess he said it, I don't know. I'm going to take everybody's word for it. He was playing the valid truth journal, exit interview. And he said something like, you accused Baker of using a flashlight. Well, we don't know why Jeff doesn't see Alex. And so true crime fan girl is very upset about that. And so I cold call her. And I'm like, listen, I'm going to tell you something that only a couple of people know. And here is the reason why my husband doesn't see his son. And this is someone who I don't really know. And so I trusted her with this information. And she's not going to say anything. But I just wanted to put her at a little bit of peace because she was so upset by this. And I just want to say to all of you who don't know what our family life is like, we do share. And I do share a lot. But you have to understand that a lot of what I share is very generic basic information that probably would have been a Facebook post at some point back in the day. I just happen to share it on my platform. It's very generic information. There is a lot of stuff that we don't talk about on my show. And in particular, the situation with my husband and his son. And I cannot talk about it. And every person who does know is all in agreement that this is not something we talk about. But it is definitely not something like what Aiden is trying to insinuate. And the reason I am so unbothered by it is because it's just absolutely not true. Now, does it bother me that Aiden is making these assumptions? It does, right? But he's a caged animal right now. He's very upset. I'm hearing valid truth journey. Like one, two, and three. We're kind of boring in d'asile. And tonight he is full of his and vinegar and rage. I would be two. I would be two. Because he keeps trying and I just won't leave. I just won't leave. So I just don't want anybody to get upset. I don't want anybody to go crazy. If you are a regular normal human being, if there was any inclination or accusation that my husband did anything inappropriate, DCF would be involved. That never happened. And he would never have been able to be around my children, which he has been around every single minute for their lives going on 14 years. So there's that. The other thing I will mention in case it just needs to get, talked about and people understand, my husband had these issues, not the specific issue, but issues with his ex-wife, long before Jeff Machado, ever knew who Jeff Machado was. So this is a situation that was born out of a relationship that never should have happened. And it caused my husband and his family a tremendous amount of grief for years. It cost them tens of thousands of dollars. And it is unfortunate, but it's not, has nothing to do with me. I am a part of it. Now, this is my husband and our family. And if there are times where I say, like, I have four children, prior to everything that happened, it was always we had four children. But to not disrupt some of the things that were happening, we just didn't, we didn't want to draw attention to what was happening. Not because of us or shame, because we didn't do anything wrong. So we don't, there's no shame or no issues. It was for privacy reasons. I wouldn't bring up Alex in the past couple of years because I didn't want people asking questions because we can't talk about it. We're not going to talk about it. So, if Aiden needs to use this as some sort of weapon over tool, nobody should really be surprised. You people have been watching him for years. It's no different what he's doing to me that he hasn't done to everybody else. It's no different. So just came here to just say, like, don't get upset. I understand that the knee jerk reaction is whatever. I wasn't, I jumped to the chat and I said, are you fucking losing out of your mind or something like that? But I hadn't heard everything and I don't know exactly everything. So, he's doing some really crash out shit right now. And what do you want? I mean, he's in a bad place. He's in a bad place. He's not in a good place. So I wish him well. He's going to get over this. He's going to get through it. He's going to be fine. Anyway, it's the internet. These are not really words that translate into real life. So, you know what I mean? And also just like, just as a side note, saying somebody used a sex toy that he took a picture of and sent back to the girl who sent it. And me saying that he used it is a very big difference between you accusing my husband of being a pedophile. So, just so we're on the same page. It's we're reaching here. It's an extraordinary reach. In other news, I have not looked through all these messages, but apparently, confirmed by J7, Jake was on her show tonight. Now, I got to go back and watch it. And once I get home and I put on my jammies, I will. However, I am so happy. I asked if it was okay. Did it go well? And she says, yes, I think so. That means it was okay. Like, he came on by choice. And he came on the show. Wonderful. Wonderful. Perfect. Perfect, actually. She must be so happy. She must be so happy. I'm so happy for her. I'm so happy for Jake. I didn't get a chance to come on the internet today and talk to everybody about it, but I thought that you would all be the first to know if you're lucky how many people are here right now. Not a lot of people. Not a lot of people. J7 is here. Is J7 streaming this while she's on the show? Is she on her show? Is she streaming my spaces right now? Because I will give you the breaking news if you want a breaking news. Wait, how can I confirm? Text regular phone. Are you streaming this on your show? Well, we're just going to wing it anyway. I don't know. I see her here. She's probably not here, but I don't really know. Anyway, we just, you know, whatever. We got the body cam footage from the swatting event in Tennessee. So, you know, I am very much looking forward to that. I haven't shout out Doei fingers, who is literally just an absolute fucking gem. Doei fingers put into public records request for it and paid the fee. And I guess like she was waiting for it today, she almost got in her car to drive like the three hours to go and get it. But we got body cam footage of the swatting event in Tennessee, which I am very much looking forward to. Now, I'm not looking forward to seeing the fear in children's eyes and the assassination attempt on Baker's life. But I know you and I are all going to watch it about with the same kind of urgency and excitement as the 60 minutes interview with Patrick Lansing and his wife on Sunday. I can't wait. Can't wait to see it. Show me the money. Show me the tears. Show me the scared moment. Show me the police squad cars. Show me everybody getting down on the ground and hiding for their lives. Show me the fear in the children. Show me the anxiety. Show me. Show me what a swatting event looks like in Tennessee. Can't wait to fucking see it. Fairy tales, all fairy tales. And then apparently Trump has made a deal with Denmark to acquire Greenland. And I just feel like if you could see my text messages, she sends me a text with the screenshot of it. And I don't know what it said. It was something like we won the war. Like it couldn't be a better day. It couldn't be a better day. I feel a little weird that this is on space. Because spaces are for people to talk to each other. So I'm sad we're not talking to each other. But I didn't want to go on the YouTube's and compete with, and Peachy is also doing. Peachy is taking one for the team. And she is streaming Aidan's stream about me, who is streaming our old exit interview. Peachy's doing the dirty work. I'm sure she looks flawless. But I didn't want to disrupt J7. She doesn't have to stream this. I just wanted to chit chat while I was on my drive home. After I was all healed by the music. Also, I was walking out by myself. And I hear, hey, Bastie. And a bun bun was there. Shout out Jen. And she was like, I tried to message you on Twitter to tell you I was going to be here. She found me and cornered me in the lobby. And we took a selfie. I will post it. But I was thrilled. Would have been helpful to see you at the beginning. So I wasn't all alone. I'm kidding. It was wonderful to be alone. It was great. There was a part at the end. I couldn't really even believe it. But well, two things that happened. So we're doing all these songs. And you think it's just your singing. But what they actually do is they try to get you to all harmonize. And they want to.